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Broken? Stanza IX – Part I

June 7, 2013 by  
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Broken?

But peace cannot be found this way,
nor will lasting joy be had.
Only temporary pleasures,
self put first in a world gone mad.

pieta4This is the stanza that took the longest to write, and it is also my favorite from the first half of the poem because of the last line.  I see very clearly that we are losing touch with God, who IS reality, and putting ourselves in first place.  After much laboring over the words for the last line….. they were suddenly, just there!  It is exactly what I wanted to say, and in far less words.

While writing about the last two or three stanzas I have come to see that the poem is split into two sections of nine stanzas each.  The first half has to do with the soul’s awakening (my soul in particular), having its blinders removed, becoming aware of the true state of the world and the evil contained therein, and its own participation in sinful activities.  This realization prompts a sincere change of heart and the soul begins the journey home, seeking Truth, and the peace that comes in finding Truth (Jesus).

There really is objective moral Truth.  When we seek it we find Jesus; with Jesus comes peace.

True peace is not just an absence of conflict.  True peace is soul deep, and remains even in the midst of conflict.  We cannot, and will never be able to, find true peace apart from God.  So anything that comes from the misguided ways and wisdom of the world is doomed from the beginning.  We see this when we look at the fruits of war, abortion, artificial contraception, all sexual acts that are selfish, and many other issues that focus on us first.  People are being used as if they were mere objects!  At some level we know this and it takes its toll on us!  Remember….the soul knows.  

“…For the wisdom of this world is foolishness in the eyes of God, for it is written: “He catches the wise in their own ruses,…” (1 Corinthians 3:19)

It’s fascinating that a society that prides itself on its advanced knowledge and education, has not learned from the past, and is, in fact, repeating the errors of previous generations and cultures.

“Progress, far from consisting in change, depends on retentiveness. When change is absolute there remains no being to improve and no direction is set for possible improvement: and when experience is not retained, as among savages, infancy is perpetual. Those who cannot remember the past are condemned to repeat it.”  - – George Santayana   (Emphasis mine.)

A good working definition of ‘insanity’ is ‘being out of touch with reality.”  Since we know that God is reality, insanity is being out of touch with God.  This explains a lot!

Abortion is genocide, except that rather than targeting a particular race, it targets the most innocent and helpless human beings; the unborn. A quick internet search reveals that approximately 56 million people die each year from various causes, these statistics do not include deaths due to abortion.  According to the World Health Organization (WHO), the number of yearly abortions around the world is said to be between 40 and 50 million.  This does not take into account chemical and spontaneous abortions that result from the use of contraceptives, which is estimated in “The Contraception of Grief”,  written by Dr. Theresa Burke, Ph.D. and others, to be between 1.53 and 4.15 times the number of surgical abortions performed each year – in the USA alone.   So a very modest estimate would be that 100 million deaths occur each year due to abortion.  That is almost twice the number of deaths contributed to all other causes combined!!

How very sad that the womb has become the most dangerous place to be in all the world.

O Mary conceived without sin; Pray for us who have recourse to Thee.

In our selfishness we have become truly MAD!!  (Crazy, foolish, nutty, around the bend, etc.!!)

While looking up the previous quote by George Santayana, I found a beautiful little poem of his that captures my sentiments about all this very well.

O world, thou choosest not the better part!
It is not wisdom to be only wise,
And on the inward vision close the eyes,
But it is wisdom to believe the heart.
Columbus found a world, and had no chart,
Save one that faith deciphered in the skies;
To trust the soul’s invincible surmise
Was all his science and his only art.

The soul knows…

Love & Prayers,

Becky

This post is part of a series.  The introduction and other articles from the series can be found here once they have been published.

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About Becky Ward

Becky is a wife, mother of four (One in heaven), grandmother of five, and a ‘re-formed Catholic’ who, after receiving the gift of a deep conversion in 2006, and working through the Disciples of Jesus and Mary faith formation program, now considers herself to be ‘fully Catholic’ What this means is that she now, at last, understands and appreciates the beauty of the Catholic faith in such a way that she wants to share it with everyone. “I’ve heard that the Blessed Mother told a visionary, “If Catholics really lived their faith, the whole world would be Catholic.” I see the truth in this, and it is my deepest hope to be a living example that draws others to Jesus. Given the nickname Rebel-Becca by her mother, Becky strongly identifies with St. John the Baptist and his call to “make straight the path of the Lord.”, and with his role as “Friend of the Bridegroom”. The poem, “Broken?”, written through her hand, is a reflection of the journey of the soul, and Becky explains what the Holy Spirit is teaching her as she writes posts for each stanza.

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  • LizEst

    Beautiful writing. Thanks Becky. I continue to keep you in my prayers. God bless you!

    I did not know who Santayana was but found a very interesting write up here where the author, who knew him, calls him a Catholic atheist: http://www.spiritualitytoday.org/spir2day/863843butler.html Quite a number of other articles and write-ups say much the same thing. So, I would urge caution for those who might be interested in his writing, since he seems to be, at best, conflicted “between some degree of Catholicism and some degree of atheism” (Richard Butler, O.P., in “George Santayana: Catholic Atheist”. Butler has written extensively on Santayana).

    His situation is not unlike what many suffer from today. Is it any wonder that the killing of the innocent, that abortion, euthanasia, and all the forms of grave sins that cry out to heaven for justice, have become commonplace in our world? Blessed be God that, in His mercy, He has given us recourse to the Sacred Heart of Jesus, whose solemnity we celebrate today?

    • Becky Ward

      Thanks Liz, I didn’t know who he was either….just that the Lord kept putting that first quote in my head for this post. The poem speaks for itself. I think the spirit captured in those two quotes, kind of like with my own writing, demonstrates that God can, and does work through the most unlikely of persons. I am grateful for your prayers……I certainly need them.

      • LizEst

        Yes, nothing wrong with what you quoted. I can understand why it spoke to you. I’ve run across his name before but never bothered to look it up. Thought it was about time that I did…and so I did!

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  • Jan

    Where can one obtain a copy of her poem? Will the entire poem be posted eventually on the CSD website? I would love to hear about Becky’s conversion experience. It sounds similar to mine as a reformed Catholic. Thanks.

  • MarytheDefender

    This is beautiful! During the honeymoon phase of my conversion, I was overwhelmed with the greatness of God’s love! I could harldy believe it was true! But then He told me, “What is most good is what is most true.”
    Shortly after, I read a passage in St. Faustina’s diary. Her confessor comforted her, saying that she had trouble believing Jesus because He was so good to her!
    Yes the world is blind to the truth. It is a shame that so few recognize how truly good and wonderful the Truth is!

    • Becky Ward

      AMEN!!

  • JoFlemings

    Becky- ‘the soul knows…”- love this! ‘No chart save one that faith deciphered’- we need this so much don’t we (the world today)? This is beautiful, thank you!

    • Becky Ward

      Yep…we’ve had the heart / intuition ‘educated’ right out of us!

  • http://rcspiritualdirection.com/blog Mary@42

    Beautiful. And like Jo says, that compact Divine Truth says it all……yes, ‘the soul knows…’

    • JoFlemings

      Mary!!! I am so glad to see your face in your photo!! Bless you!:)

      • http://rcspiritualdirection.com/blog Mary@42

        You know Jo, this old countenance loves to play hide-and-seek games. One moment she comes on…. then for reasons best known to my Laptop, she disappears!!!!!. So enjoy her while she obliges you. Be blessed