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Catholic Spiritual Direction

Broken? – Introduction and Poem

April 6, 2012 by  
Filed under Becky Ward, Broken, Poetry

I am an average, middle-aged wife and homemaker, mom and grandmother, from a small town in the Pacific Northwest who has been blessed to receive a spiritual conversion that truly changed my life.  I was raised Catholic and didn’t know that Catholics could have conversions. (Isn’t that just for those converting to Catholicism?)  I also didn’t know that God still speaks to His people. He does; and to each of us in ways that we can learn to understand.  Not only that, but we can talk with Him like we do a friend, and most amazingly, we can learn why He created us and what our purpose for being here is, according to the ‘plan’ He has for each of us as unique individuals.

Part of this process for me was discovering a wonderful faith formation program, or course of study (Disciples of Jesus & Mary), where I did learn to hear and talk with God.  It is based on the teaching of the Church along with the lives of the saints and is one of the most valuable things I have ever done.  Toward the end of the program I began having these insights that showed me how crazy ‘the world’ is because of secular influences, and because many of us live and behave as if God doesn’t exist.  I was also granted the huge grace of seeing how, in my own life, I had been walking on the path to destruction, and how, through a sincere change of heartI was able to say “Yes.”, to the Lord and allow Him to show me and guide me along the narrow path, the path to salvation.

The following poem is the result of these insights.  Truly the work of the Holy Spirit, the words simply bubbled up into my heart.  I offer it in the hope that it will speak to your heart.  I shared the poem with my spiritual director and he told me that poetry is ‘experience crystallized’.  I had not heard that before, but it was certainly true about this poem.  After reflecting on this for a while the idea came to me that I could explain each stanza of the poem, kind of like St. John of the Cross does.  My insights have more to do with ‘the signs of the times’ and how, although we seem to be so advanced, in many ways we are farther from God than ever, and also what we need in order to get on, and stay on, the right path.

For the next year I will explain one stanza at a time sharing the gifts and lessons the Lord has packed into them, and what I see from the perspective of a woman who is in love with Jesus and on a deliberate path to serve Him according to my Plan Of Life (POL).  The goal is to post these on the 1st and 3rd Friday of each month.

I am a Catholic who is faithful to the magisterial teaching of the Holy Catholic Church, I write from this perspective and share my own experiences in the hope that they may be of help to others on the journey……for the Greater Glory of God and the salvation of souls!

 

Broken?                                                                           Explanations

In a world of broken people                                          Stanza I – Part I
You alone can make us whole.
Wounded hearts and minds and spirits,                       Stanza I – Part II
broken bodies, battered souls.

Come Lord Jesus to repair us,
with Your gift of healing love.                                       Stanza II – Part I
Send Your Spirit to prepare us,
for our home in heaven above.                                    Stanza II – Part II

For the earth is not our homeland,
but a testing ground of faith.                                        Stanza III – Part I
Ever onward You implore us,
as You fill us with Your Grace.                                    Stanza III – Part II

Give us strength to meet the challenge,
that the world does but provide.                                  Stanza IV – Part I
Let us see the spiritual battle,
and from TRUTH, let us not hide.                               Stanza IV – Part II

Flesh will tell us to seek comfort.
“We deserve it!  We work hard!”                                  Stanza V – Part I
Yet our spirits truly suffer,
when the ‘self’ gets high regard.                                 Stanza V – Part II

Broken, to ‘The World’ means useless.
“We must be strong, and never weak!”                       Stanza VI – Part I
But in contrast to this vision,
brokenness is what You seek.                                    Stanza VI – Part II 

For when our human strength prevails,
Pride and self-reliance grow.                                      Stanza VII – Part I
We then forget that we are creatures,
whom to God, due worship owe.                                Stanza VII – Part II

Blinded by success and praises,
of our fellow man trek we.                                          Stanza VIII – Part I
Developing more innovations,
from pain and death to be set free.                            Stanza VIII – Part II

But peace cannot be found this way,
nor will lasting joy be had.                                          Stanza IX – Part I
Only temporary pleasures,
self put first in a world gone mad.

Your call Dear Lord, is to something better,
where peace and love and grace abound.                Stanza X – Part I
The soul united with its Master,
this is where true joy is found.                                   Stanza X – Part II

You never said it would be easy,
following Your footsteps here.                                   Stanza XI – Part I
In fact You promised pain and sorrow;
much suffering for those who persevere.                  Stanza XI – Part II

“No pain, No gain!”  You led the way,
and showed the path we too must find.                     Stanza XII – Part I
Your saints remind us through example,
on what to set our heart and mind.                            Stanza XII – Part II

“Take up your cross” You tell us still,
in this is our salvation won.                                        Stanza XIII – Part I
Not by strength or mighty actions,
but little things, done with great love.

For hidden in each loving gesture
and act of kindness done for you,
lie grace and healing; Divine compassion,
and soon we see they help us too.

It’s through our service to one another
that we be-come like You Lord.
Turning strangers into family,
hearts and minds with one accord.

Building up our Father’s Kingdom,
strengthening Christ’s Body too,
heart-to-heart, one soul to another,
living as God tells us to.

Loving obedience to Your law Lord,
submission to Your Holy Will,
this is where we discover freedom,
in You we find our hearts are still.

True peace and love we find at last,
and now we see with clarity.
You take us broken and make us whole,
so shall we be, for all eternity!

Love & Prayers,
Becky

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About Becky Ward

Becky is a wife, mother of four (One in heaven), grandmother of five, and a ‘re-formed Catholic’ who, after receiving the gift of a deep conversion in 2006, and working through the Disciples of Jesus and Mary faith formation program, now considers herself to be ‘fully Catholic’ What this means is that she now, at last, understands and appreciates the beauty of the Catholic faith in such a way that she wants to share it with everyone. “I’ve heard that the Blessed Mother told a visionary, “If Catholics really lived their faith, the whole world would be Catholic.” I see the truth in this, and it is my deepest hope to be a living example that draws others to Jesus. Given the nickname Rebel-Becca by her mother, Becky strongly identifies with St. John the Baptist and his call to “make straight the path of the Lord.”, and with his role as “Friend of the Bridegroom”. The poem, “Broken?”, written through her hand, is a reflection of the journey of the soul, and Becky explains what the Holy Spirit is teaching her as she writes posts for each stanza.

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  • judeen

    so true , God give us messages with poems and songs.. I have had both too.. the poem , each stanZia was in scripture, I did not know it… yet it touched a preist who said it was His about His 1st trip as a preist… then a song of running horses, gathering up by a stalion… to bring them to God… I could see it too as the song played over and over in my head… God total AW,  miraculause , HOLY , touching us in a tender kind way…

  • Guest

    What an absolutely beautiful poem! I look forward to the explanations of each stanza.  

  • seminerian Bonny Njuguna N.

    it encouraging expecially this eastertide may the risen lord reward you abudantly.  

  • Rowenalitorja

    What a beautiful poem! I wish a sincere congratulations for sharing to all.  Very inspiring, you created a poem that truly guided by the Holy Spirit, by sharing this poem to others will touch their heart.

  • Casolt

    Truth! Thank you for sharing, Becky. We will pray that your poem and lessons touch many hearts. It is truly beautiful.

  • Ramiro Ramirez-Solis

    Thank you very much Becky, for sharing this beautiful poem. May the Lord fill you with blessings, and may He readynour hearts to hear Him through you.

  • AnnieB

    Becky, this is beautiful. Thank you for sharing.

  • Ksspielmann

    Thank you Becky for this truly inspiring poem. “let us see the spiritual battle from truth” is standing out to me at this moment. I know that I am called to love like Jesus but that I also must stand for His truth especially when a very close sibling is telling me about her dating a woman. I am struggling with this for her and myself. Please pray for me.

    • Becky Ward

      Prayers coming!!  Being Holy Week, this is a good time to reflect on the spiritual battle…..we have so many good things to read…and of course Our Savior’s example in showing us how to deal with our own struggles.

      Die to self and pray, pray, pray!!

  • Ksspielmann

    Thank you Becky for this profound poem. It helps me to realize that only truth will set all of us free in our sinful chains that we ourselves hold onto. Truth will always prevail!

  • Santamickey

    Wow that was an awesome poem. Truly inspirational. God Bless you this Easter with much joy,love,peace and happiness. And I pray you continue on your journey with God and the holy spirit. And that he inspires you to write another poem as this seems to come naturally through the holy spirit to you. He is risen amen. Kathy,OFS Siochan Agus Maitheas. (Peace All Good)

  • Pamela

    Dear Becky,  You have “chrystallized my experience” exactly!  Thank you for sharing this lovely poem.  I have printed it and will keep it along with the prayer of St Theresa of Avila which transformed my heart and soul and led me to inner healing, peace and a deep devotion to God.  In addition led me from the Salvation Army to the Catholic faith!!  Pamela from South Africa

  • mrgees

    I a man who went through conversion of my heart two years ago, the conversion followed right away my realization how broken I was, falling on my knees with tears, confessing to the Lord that I was not sure He heard me but in case He did, that I was lost and “may Your will be done.”
    After that night my heart was never the same. I felt in love with Christ, the with His Church. My whole body and soul literary recognized Christ in Eucharist! Psalms changed from “some blabbing” to letters of love, which cut through to the bottom of my heart, the place reserved only for God.

    Before reading the poem in this post I asked Holy Spirit for guidance (I am not so advanced as Becky is) and protect me from any error in the poem in case there is such. I read it and, oh Lord, how true this poem is! I felt like I wrote it (except nobody could read it so badly I formulate my thoughts ;))

    Thank you Becky!

    • judeen

      mrgees  , you have the key… ask God into your heart…. confessing to God you wronges…. this is the key… teach it.. help others know the secret.. mean it.. and feel Gods power in their lives… it seems so simple , yet so profound…. then also asking the Holy Spirit to guide you , and He opens the heart and soul up… and one can see what God wants us to see…..  thanks for putting it into words…

  • Mary

    What inspiration. Truly the Holy Spirit is with you!

  • $1650412

    YAYY! looking forward to it, Becky!

  • Johanna

    God Bless you Becky as He opens your heart to HIM and through you to others!  Keeping you in heart & prayer. Lovingly your djm sister

  • Jim

    It is good to hear that conversions do happen in this day and age, even to Catholics ! May many more hearts be touched by your story.
    God Bless and keep you always in His Heart !
    jim, a lost catholic

    • Groves Susana

      Jim,
      You may feel lost to yourself, but you are never lost to God.  He never takes his beautiful eyes off of you.

    • Becky Ward

      Lost? Then you’re in the right place!  :)  Jesus came to save the lost!!

  • Ltqlin

    Thank you, Becky. I enjoyed reading your poem. I don’t suppose you would mind me (us) sending it out to my friends and family–? Happy Easter. Halleluiah!  

    • Becky Ward

      Please do!  I am delighted that you want to share it!  :)

  • Joanna

    Dear Becky, Your story is so similar to mine.  I too was under so many mistaken impressions! Only God knows how many times I have turned away from Him, thinking His Spirit was pure hysteria, as my doctor at the time tried to make me believe, until finally I felt Jesus’ presence with such force, that I just couldn’t mistake His voice.  He has done so much for me and worked so many wonders in my life! Without Him I couldn’t have done anything of all that I have achieved.  He has done great things for me and I am never happier than when I can do something for Him in return.  

  • Clare

    What a gift we have received today- looking forward to you posts- I am Blest by this wonder-fill Revelation by our Sweet Holy Spirit- my favorite picture of the Crucified is above 

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  • http://www.marythedefender.wordpress.com MariaGo

    Thank you Becky for this beautiful poem! It really speaks to the heart! I love that line “brokenness is what You seek” All too often my brokenness scares me. But in the end it has always draws us closer to Him. :)
    Thank You again! God Bless and Happy Easter!

  • Pat

    I found your stanzas this morning
    Kindred spirit you and me
    I daily awake in freedom and struggle 
    Without THEM I am not me.

    God Bless your insights

  • http://rcspiritualdirection.com/blog Mary@42

    Wow, thank you, Becky for sharing your story and giving us this wonderful Spirit-filled Poem.  Though my experience of God is never earth-shaking, as a Cradle Catholic I have grown knowing and feeling He is ever with me –  “…….There have been times when I’ve turned from His Presence,  and I’ve walked other paths, other ways….but I’ve  called on His name, in the dark of my shame, and His Mercy was gentle as silence”… I Hymn I love singing to Him every evening before I go to bed……so I always “Walk by Faith not by Sight” or emotions.

  • Mobrien7

    Hello,

    Thank you for the poem and I am looking forward to your future comments on it.  This sounds like something that may help some of my family members and their faith.

    I also notices the link referenced in the text is to a SOLT priest.  The same SOLT as Fr. Corapi?

    Mike

    • Becky Ward

      Yes, the same SOLT as Fr. Corapi.  We are praying mighitly for him.

  • Liz_lee2chan

    So beautiful ….  I envy you … how I wish I can hear the Lord speak to me …   

    • Becky Ward

      If I can learn to hear Him speak to me, anyone else can too…..if they have the desire to learn!  :)  We just need to be taught!!

      God Bless!

    • Rosanne Fernando

       Liz ..  I once was going round in circles with a decision I had to take. Then a priest told me to do spend some time in quiet just by myself, without even feeling the need to pray. I begged the Lord to help me know his will and then “quietened down”  He actually “thundered’ to me in about 4 stages over some time .. which I can share if you like .. but main point is that like Samuel  – make  yourself available .. “speak Lord your servant is listening”  and he will speak to your heart.  Prayers   

  • Marcia Morio

    Hi Becky,
    The Disciples of Jesus and Mary program sounds like something I would be interested in. Can you give me some information about it? I could give you my email if that would be helpful.
    Thank you and God bless you,
    Marcia

    • Becky Ward

      Marcia,

      Sorry to take so long in replying.  Please send me an email here: rebelbecca13@yahoo.com  and we can talk more about the DJM.

      Blessings….

  • rose

    What a blessing! Your story and your poem blessed me. Thank you for sharing. It’s an inspiration.

  • Mary

    Is the formation program still available?  I know that Fr. Pinto passed away and I am sure he is missed by his community.  But, I am sure that his intercession is even more effective for souls now that he is among the heavenly hosts!  

    • Becky Ward

      YES!  The program is still available.  One of the most beautiful things about this program is that it is for the laity….and we pass it on to others…very much like what Jesus’ disciples did originally.

      I believe you are right about Fr. Pinto’s intercession being more effective now.  We are truly blessed!  Thank you for asking!

  • 3rdviola

    Your poem was a great blessing to me. Every stanza rings true. It is so simple, so powerful, and so encouraging. I learned this: brokenness because of our sin is always better than pride because of some personal ‘triumph’ over sin–pride is the greater satanic foothold. “a broken and contrite heart He will not despise”.

  • Fran

    I wanted to thank you for this Becky. I am copying it all to a document for further reflection but one explanation, Stanza IV – Part II
    is missing, the link does not work. Can you fix that so I can copy and add it? Thank you and God bless.
    Fran

    • Becky Ward

      Hi Fran,  I am so sorry I didn’t see your comment sooner.  Thank you for letting me know about the broken link – it has been fixed. I also appreciate your kind words.

  • BeckitaMaria

    I had been visiting this website for more than a year but only recently did its presence continue to repeatedly tap on the shoulder of my heart. 

    Just today, I have discovered your poem, Becky.   Thank you for sharing your own heart and soul in this way!

    I will savor your ensuing posts containing the insights revealed in the verses by reading through them in a meditative, reflective way.  Thanks again

  • Rosanne Fernando

    Your poem speaks of a beautiful journey. Wonderful blessing  and inspiring words  

    • Becky Ward

      Thank you Rosanne!  I am amazed sometimes when I go back and read the poem and posts again.  I think , “Did I really write this??”  The Holy Spirit can truly work through the poorest vessels.

  • http://www.facebook.com/Pier.Giorgio.Peter.Lock.OPL Peter Lock

    Thanks Becky to be used by the Holy Spirit to minister to us all.

    • Becky Ward

      Hi Peter, thanks for your kind words.  Is your picture upside-down on purpose?  It makes me think of how my life seems sometimes…..a great visual reminder that made me smile!!